Disappointment is the only thing my mailbox seems to bring me these days. I think I'm done waiting for that one email that's going to make me rub my hands in glee and say Yesss I can do this. I can!

Plan B just doesn't seem as exciting as it used to a few years back and so I'm sometimes tempted to just skip to Plan C. But then that is so depressing that I might as well just shoot myself in the head.

But Plan A... ohh now that is a plan. Something I've wanted to do as long as I remember. If only I'd been smarter earlier and not gone down certain paths with certain people I'd be living my dream right now. I'm not going to give up though. It's just money that's stopping me, just some numbers in my bank account and some papers in my portfolio. I will now use Plan B to get to Plan A. I might even have to rope in Plan C to get there faster.

Yesterday I remembered how you once said I smelled like butter cookies and I couldn't bring myself to open the packet I was holding in my hands.

And today I took a bus instead of a cab. So I saved like a 100 rupees but ended up spending four times the amount on tonic water! Oh well, but I had to stock up anyway because parteeeeez are just around the corner. I think.

Next time I post I will have some news. I think.

I still love you. I know.