Baby boy is a week old and I still can't take my eyes off him!

Her name is Pillow and Kay says she would be perfect for me. I know I would be perfect for her. But soulmates don't always stay together, no one knows that better than I do.

Dad left yesterday and I realise that I didn't feel this sad and lonely even during the worst of it last year. We had a blast though, just the two of us after ages. Reminded me of the time Mom was away on work and Bro was studying in Poona and it was just Dad and me at home. Except this time neither of us was working or studying or screaming at each other about whose turn it was to pick up the groceries or cook! And one of us was definitely not begging the other for permission to stay out late at night.

This time of course, I was the one yelling for the TV and lights to be switched off. I guess it's no mystery where I get my movie mania from! Of course, these days Dad always wants to know who is calling or texting me. Every time the goddamn phone makes a peep. He didn't give a damn when I was a teenager and used to tie up the phone lines for hours but now, he just has to know. I just love him!

We talked about everything that's happened since last year. I asked Dad if he wanted to see pictures of her and he said no. "I don't even want to acknowledge her existence so don't ask me again," he said. Then I asked what he would say to him if they ever met again and Dad said, "I don't know...what do you want me to say? I would rather ignore him."

Someday I may even forgive him for breaking my heart and betraying my trust but I will never forgive him for what he did to my Dad.