Will someone please tell my subconscious mind to stop feeling so abandoned, rejected, and forlorn. And to absolutely stop having this perpetual foreboding sense of doom. Like something is going to go wrong all the time; from me slicing off the top of my finger, with nail et al, to my broadband cable getting entangled in the tree outside my window and the strong monsoon winds yanking out the wires from the connector and leaving me offline for two whole days! (Well, what do you know? These things have actually happened).
But this post is not about me being at the receiving end of Murphy's Laws, it's about the crazy and stupid dreams I have been having of late. Not that my dreams have ever been sane, but now they are just getting worse. I am constantly dreaming about my ex and me in the following scenarios:
He abandons me and I can't even reach him on the phone. But he keeps calling me from some private number and says he's never going to come back because his life is in danger. No amount of my cajoling can get him to come back.
I bump into him and his girlfriend and she's pregnant. But it's not his baby!
The two of us are on holiday and we bump into one of my friends and her husband (he has actually never met this couple even though they've been very old friends). The four of us talk and then the three of them leave me to go and do drugs! I chase my ex and catch up to find him poking needles into his veins - hardcore stuff - and I'm trying to talk him out of wasting away his life.
And these are just the odd afternoon naps I'm talking about.
I'm afraid to sleep at night now. Really afraid!
Featured Post
It's been too long, she says. My muse, she waits...
Blogging has been a wonderful refuge for my soul over the past 13 years* ; it's a place I've come to sometimes frequently, some...
Popular Posts
-
Yesterday while I was taking a shower, my mind was suddenly flooded with recollections of all the times I've been asked for "writin...
-
You look so good in all shades of blue until one rainy morning I witness white cotton sitting gently on your shoulders bringing out the glo...
-
Last night, while chatting with Marmalade, I typed - "I thought I knew all there is to know about love until I met him." She f... -
It happens to everyone. No matter how different you think you are or hope to be, there comes a point when your mouth automatically s...
-
Ask any self-respecting Goan, worth his or her weight in coconut, what would they like as their last meal and this is the answer you will ...
-
And in the end, we will count all the things we didn't do. While other lovers piece together moments to map their memories, we will fli...
-
She is fire. She sparks and rages, spits and smokes, radiates a heat that could burn him to cinders. Oh, but he is water. He g...
-
He walked out of the elevator and approached her with a big smile on his face. She felt her cheeks flush with a shyness she never knew she ...
-
Take me to all the places you've been keeping from me. Even the ones you think I will not like. Especially the ones you think I wil...
-
The words roll off my tongue and cling to your floor. I cannot control what you do with them once they force their way out of my guard. Som...
8 comments:
I don't know how much you believe ( or don't believe ) of this but change the room in which you sleep or if can not change the direction. and a nice shower; some warm milk and some meditation or some chant before you go to bed can be helpful.
TLC.
Dear CC,
That happens with me also sometimes. I can completely understand what you must be going through. Sorry that you are feeling that way. I would advise you not to talk about the content of your dream with anyone as talking about it reinforces those memories into your brain. Watch some comedy movies. You will be fine.
Take care,
Shruti
OMG! Very spooky! Thankfully, I hae no dreams.
Just realised how that statement makes me sound like a loser. Perspective.
@BlueMist - Hello! I can't change the room or direction I sleep in, unfortunately. And I hate milk!
Maybe meditation and chanting... I should be starting my day with that actually. Bad me, I know!
@Surreal - Thanks. Actually I understand why I dream these dreams. It's normal for someone in my situation. You're right though, I should stop talking about them. And I watch comedies all the time btw :-)
@Tamanna - You seriously don't dream? Lucky you! I dream even with my eyes open, and I'm not talking about "happy how my life is going to be in 5 years" kind of dreams :-)
I have some weird dreams and sometimes when I wake it is a while before I can believe it was just a dream.
I feel you need to be taken out of yourself by becoming absorbed in something pleasant. Is a holiday a possibility? I know from experience that if one can just be jolted out of one's frame of mind, the worries and fears disappear and are
forgotten
@Pat - I guess it's normal for these dreams to happen now, with D day approaching. I can't tell you how I'm longing for a holiday! But I figure I may as well wait till it's all over and then go on a break. You know, feel refreshed and rejuvenated once and for all!
I say... you plan a D Day partaaaaaaay! You cant help what you dream... your subconscious has a weird way of working through memories, anxieties and fantasies. I bet the pregnant girl with another man's child is in the last category! Anyhoooo.. perfectly normal. I dream about my ex. You never get closure when you love. And dreaming doesnt mean you aint doin shit right. Luv ya! Buy the dress for the party!
Hmm.. so i woke up today having a weird dream. and it was mostly because I think I was jet lagging. but heres a geeky view on the dream thing. Most studies say that if your brain is heated (yes!) then it sends some response that translate into nightmares. So somethings the studies recommend: (i) cool your head with water before sleeping; (ii) wash feet with cold water and really soak them; (iii) no empty stomach for afternoon siestas; (iv) no psychedelic performance enhancing drugs (yeah right! see heres your problem;); and (v) meditation/music before sleeping.
Hope this helps. I got up with a headache all tired from the nightmares and sympathize.
Post a Comment